A New Me

There are so many things that could be said. So many things that could've been worked out, but honestly there's no point. I've realize that I dnt want to try to work things out w/ him. Why try when he already believes that I never loved him? Why try to break my back when he's just gonna hold me dwn w/ the past? I've had this small empty feeling & I kno that it's cuz I miss what we had. I still love that boy whether he wants to believe it or not, but I realized that while I was stuck stayin w/ someone that held me back I missed alot of oppourtunites. I'm not gonna go on about who did what & how much it hurt. I've left it alone & it's in the past. I've learned & I'm growing from it. I've realized alot of things in these past 2 weeks & I can honestly say that I feel alot better than I have in a while. I'm more confident & I'm finally believing in me. Writing songs have been really theraputic for me. I'm glad that I have this person in my corner that's there for me every step of the way. It really means alot to me. I'm happy for everything that he's given me which has made me happy w/ myself today. I've forgiven myself for everything I've done but most of all I've forgiven him. I'm not holding on to the past. I'm lookin towards my future. I'm a totally new person. =)